Not long enough...

This may not seem like much but its very meaningful to me.

I don't know where the title came from(it may seem to contradict the meaning of what I wrote) but...its literally the first thing that popped into my head and it just seemed 'right'.

I think the meaning is pretty self explanatory but since I'm a fan of descriptions... I've always wanted to change who I am because I felt that was the only way anyone would ever accept me. Even throughout therapy and treatment for my mental illnesses I'm always thinking "If I change this about myself then I'll be happier because I'll be able to blend in with people better." Treatment is suppose to be about me getting better yet I'm wasting my time thinking about how to change so I can live up to other peoples standards. WTF is that? Seriously...my goal is to start doing things because I want to do them and because they will help me grow and be a better, healthier person...not because I think thats what other people would want me to do.

I decided a long time ago that I wasn't worth the effort it takes to be happy and healthy...I am rescinding that belief.